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   When he saw me he became furious, and had not the...
[06/05/2010 4:34 am]
When he saw me he became furious, and had not the attendants seized him in time, he would have tried to kill meAs we were holding him a strange thing happenedHe suddenly redoubled his efforts, and then as suddenly grew calmI looked round instinctively, but could see nothingThen I caught the patient's eye and followed it, but could trace nothing as it looked into the moonlight sky, except a big bat, which was flapping its silent and ghostly way to the westBats usually wheel about, but this one seemed to go straight on, as if it knew where it was bound for or had some intention of its own The patient grew calmer every instant, and presently said, "You needn't tie meI shall go quietly!" Without trouble, we came back to the houseI feel there is something ominous in his calm, and shall not forget this night LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY Hillingham, 24 August-I must imitate Mina, and keep writing things downThen we can have long talks when we do meetI wonder when it will beI wish she were with me again, for I feel so unhappyLast night I seemed to be dreaming again just as I was at WhitbyPerhaps it is the change of air, or getting home againIt is all dark and horrid to me, for I can remember nothingBut I am full of vague fear, and I feel so weak and worn outWhen Arthur came to lunch he looked quite grieved when he saw me, and I hadn't the spirit to try to be cheerfulI wonder if I could sleep in mother's room tonightI shall make an excuse to tryMother did not seem to take to my proposalShe seems not too well herself, and doubtless she fears to worry meI tried to keep awake, and succeeded for a while, but when the clock struck twelve it waked me from a doze, so I must have been falling asleepThere was a sort of scratching or flapping at the window, but I did not mind it, and as I remember no more, I suppose I must have fallen asleepI wish I could remember themThis morning I am horribly weakMy face is ghastly pale, and my throat pains meIt must be something wrong with my lungs, for I don't seem to be getting air enoughI shall try to cheer up when Arthur comes, or else I know he will be miserable to see me so LETTER, ARTHUR TO DRSEWARD "Albemarle Hotel, 31 August "My dear Jack, "I want you to do me a favourLucy is ill, that is she has no special disease, but she looks awful, and is getting worse every dayI have asked her if there is any cause, I not dare to ask her mother, for to disturb the poor lady's mind about her daughter in her present state of health would be fatalWestenra has confided to me that her doom is spoken, disease of the heart, though poor Lucy does not know it yetI am sure that there is something preying on my dear girl's mindI am almost distracted when I think of herTo look at her gives me a pangI told her I should ask you to see her, and though she demurred at first, I know why, old fellow, she finally consentedIt will be a painful task for you, I know, old friend, but it is for her sake, and I must not hesitate to ask, or you to shop act

   He could have divided Poland as easily as an...
[05/05/2010 5:15 am]
He could have divided Poland as easily as an orange, or trod on Ireland as quietly and systematically as any man livingAt last my mother gave up, in despairIt never will be known, till the last account, what noble and sensitive natures like hers have felt, cast, utterly helpless, into what seems to them an abyss of injustice and cruelty, and which seems so to nobody about themIt has been an age of long sorrow of such natures, in such a hell-begotten sort of world as oursWhat remained for her, but to train her children in her own views and sentiments? Well, after all you say about training, children will grow up substantially what they are by nature, and only thatFrom the cradle, Alfred was an aristocrat; and as he grew up, instinctively, all his sympathies and all his reasonings were in that line, and all mother?s exhortations went to the windsAs to me, they sunk deep into meShe never contradicted, in form, anything my father said, or seemed directly to differ from him; but she impressed, burnt into my very soul, with all the force of her deep, earnest nature, an idea of the dignity and worth of the meanest human soulI have looked in her face with solemn awe, when she would point up to the stars in the evening, and say to me, ?See there, Auguste! the poorest, meanest soul on our place will be living, when all these stars are gone forever,?will live as long as God lives!? ?She had some fine old paintings; one, in particular, of Jesus healing a blind manThey were very fine, and used to impress me strongly?See there, Auguste,? she would say; ?the blind man was a beggar, poor and loathsome; therefore, he would not heal him afar off! He called him to him, and put his hands on him! Remember this, my boy If I had lived to grow up under her care, she might have stimulated me to I know not what of enthusiasmI might have been a saint, reformer, martyr,?but, alas! alas! I went from her when I was only thirteen, and I never saw her again!? StClare rested his head on his hands, and did not speak for some minutesAfter a while, he looked up, and went on: ?What poor, mean trash this whole business of human virtue is! A mere matter, for the most part, of latitude and longitude, and geographical position, acting with natural temperamentThe greater part is nothing but an accident! Your father, for example, settles in Vermont, in a town where all are, in fact, free and equal; becomes a regular church member and deacon, and in due time joins an Abolition society, and thinks us all little better than heathensYet he is, for all the world, in constitution and habit, a duplicate of my fatherI can see it leaking out in fifty different ways,?just the same strong, overbearing, dominant spiritYou know very well how impossible it is to persuade some of the folks in your village that Squire Sinclair does not feel above themThe fact is, though he has fallen on democratic times, and embraced a democratic theory, he is to the heart an aristocrat, as much as my father, who ruled over five or six hundred slaves Miss Ophelia felt rather disposed to cavil at this picture, and was laying down her knitting to begin, but St ?Now, I know every word you are going to sayI do not say they were alike, in factOne fell into a condition where everything acted against the natural tendency, and the other where everything acted for it; and so one turned out a pretty wilful, stout, overbearing old democrat, and the other a wilful, stout old despotIf both had owned plantations in Louisiana, they would have been as like as two old bullets cast in the same mould ?What an undutiful boy you are!? said Miss Ophelia ?I don?t mean them any disrespect,? said St?You know reverence is not my forteBut, to go back to my history: ?When father died, he left the whole property to us twin boys, to be divided as we should agreeThere does not breathe on God?s earth a nobler-souled, more generous fellow, than Alfred, in all that concerns his equals; and we got on admirably with this property question, without a single unbrotherly word or feelingWe undertook to work the plantation together; and Alfred, whose outward life and capabilities had double the strength of mine, became an enthusiastic planter, and a wonderfully successful one ?But two years? trial satisfied me that I could not be a partner in that matterTo have a great gang of seven hundred, whom I could not know personally, or feel any individual interest in, bought and driven, housed, fed, worked like so many horned cattle, strained up to military precision,?the question of how little of life?s commonest enjoyments would keep them in working order being a constantly recurring problem,?the necessity of drivers and overseers,?the ever-necessary whip, first, last, and only argument,?the whole thing was insufferably disgusting and loathsome to me; and when I thought of my mothcr?s estimate of one poor human soul, it became even frightful! ?It?s all nonsense to talk to me about slaves enjoying all this! To this day, I have no patience with the unutterable trash that some of your patronizing Northerners have made up, as in their zeal to apologize for our sinsTell me that any man living wants to work all his days, from day-dawn till dark, under the constant eye of a master, without the power of putting forth one irresponsible volition, on the same dreary, monotonous, unchanging toil, and all for two pairs of pantaloons and a pair of shoes a year, with enough food and shelter to keep him in working order! Any man who thinks that human beings can, as a general thing, be made about as comfortable that way as any other, I wish he might try itI?d buy the dog, and work him, with a clear conscience!? ?I always have supposed,? said Miss Ophelia, ?that you, all of you, approved of these things, and thought them right?according to Scripture ?Humbug! We are not quite reduced to that yetAlfred who is as determined a despot as ever walked, does not pretend to this kind of defence;?no, he stands, high and haughty, on that good old respectable ground, the right of the strongest; and he says, and I think quite sensibly, that the American planter is ?only doing, in another form, what the English aristocracy and capitalists are doing by the lower classes;? that is, I take it, appropriating them, body and bone, soul and spirit, to their use and convenienceHe defends both,?and I think, at least, consistentlyHe says that there can be no high civilization without enslavement of the masses, either nominal or realThere must, he says, be a lower class, given up to physical toil and confined to an animal nature; and a higher one thereby acquires leisure and wealth for a more expanded intelligence and improvement, and becomes the directing soul of the shop lower

   For answer he put his hand on my shoulder, and...
[03/05/2010 8:47 pm]
For answer he put his hand on my shoulder, and said, with infinite tenderness, "Friend John, I pity your poor bleeding heart, and I love you the more because it does so bleedIf I could, I would take on myself the burden that you do bearBut there are things that you know not, but that you shall know, and bless me for knowing, though they are not pleasant thingsJohn, my child, you have been my friend now many years, and yet did you ever know me to do any without good cause? I may err, I am but man, but I believe in all I doWas it not for these causes that you send for me when the great trouble came? Yes! Were you not amazed, nay horrified, when I would not let Arthur kiss his love, though she was dying, and snatched him away by all my strength? Yes! And yet you saw how she thanked me, with her so beautiful dying eyes, her voice, too, so weak, and she kiss my rough old hand and bless me? Yes! And did you not hear me swear promise to her, that so she closed her eyes grateful? Yes! "Well, I have good reason now for all I want to doYou have for many years trust meYou have believe me weeks past, when there be things so strange that you might have well doubtBelieve me yet a little, friend JohnIf you trust me not, then I must tell what I think, and that is not perhaps wellAnd if I work, as work I shall, no matter trust or no trust, without my friend trust in me, I work with heavy heart and feel oh so lonely when I want all help and courage that may be!" He paused a moment and went on solemnly, "Friend John, there are strange and terrible days before usLet us not be two, but one, that so we work to a good endWill you not have faith in me?" I took his hand, and promised himI held my door open as he went away, and watched him go to his room and close the doorAs I stood without moving, I saw one of the maids pass silently along the passage, she had her back to me, so did not see me, and go into the room where Lucy layDevotion is so rare, and we are so grateful to those who show it unasked to those we loveHere was a poor girl putting aside the terrors which she naturally had of death to go watch alone by the bier of the mistress whom she loved, so that the poor clay might not be lonely till laid to eternal rest I must have slept long and soundly, for it was broad daylight when Van Helsing waked me by coming into my roomHe came over to my bedside and said, "You need not trouble about the knives "Why not?" I askedFor his solemnity of the night before had greatly impressed me "Because," he said sternly, "it is too late, or too earlySee!" Here he held up the little golden crucifix "This was stolen in the night "How stolen," I asked in wonder, "since you have it now?" "Because I get it back from the worthless wretch who stole it, from the woman who robbed the dead and the livingHer punishment will surely come, but not through meShe knew not altogether what she did, and thus unknowing, she only stole He went away on the word, leaving me with a new mystery to think of, a new puzzle to grapple with The forenoon was a dreary time, but at noon the solicitor came, MrMarquand, of Wholeman, Sons, Marquand

   It is like death!" The voice faded away into a...
[02/05/2010 8:54 pm]
It is like death!" The voice faded away into a deep breath as of one sleeping, and the open eyes closed again By this time the sun had risen, and we were all in the full light of dayVan Helsing placed his hands on Mina's shoulders, and laid her head down softly on her pillowShe lay like a sleeping child for a few moments, and then, with a long sigh, awoke and stared in wonder to see us all around her "Have I been talking in my sleep?" was all she saidShe seemed, however, to know the situation without telling, though she was eager to know what she had toldThe Professor repeated the conversation, and she said, "Then there is not a moment to loseIt may not be yet too late!" MrMorris and Lord Godalming started for the door but the Professor's calm voice called them back "Stay, my friendsThat ship, wherever it was, was weighing anchor at the moment in your so great Port of LondonWhich of them is it that you seek? God be thanked that we have once again a clue, though whither it may lead us we know notWe have been blind somewhatBlind after the manner of men, since we can look back we see what we might have seen looking forward if we had been able to see what we might have seen! Alas, but that sentence is a puddle, is it not? We can know now what was in the Count's mind, when he seize that money, though Jonathan's so fierce knife put him in the danger that even he dreadHear me, ESCAPE! He saw that with but one earth box left, and a pack of men following like dogs after a fox, this London was no place for himHe have take his last earth box on board a ship, and he leave the landHe think to escape, but no! We follow himTally Ho! As friend Arthur would say when he put on his red frock! Our old fox is wilyOh! So wily, and we must follow with wileI, too, am wily and I think his mind in a little whileIn meantime we may rest and in peace, for there are between us which he do not want to pass, and which he could not if he wouldUnless the ship were to touch the land, and then only at full or slack tideSee, and the sun is just rose, and all day to sunset is usLet us take bath, and dress, and have breakfast which we all need, and which we can eat comfortably since he be not in the same land with us Mina looked at him appealingly as she asked, "But why need we seek him further, when he is gone away from us?" He took her hand and patted it as he replied, "Ask me nothing as yetWhen we have breakfast, then I answer all questions He would say no more, and we separated to dress After breakfast Mina repeated her questionHe looked at her gravely for a minute and then said sorrowfully, "Because my dear, dear Madam Mina, now more than ever must we find him even if we have to follow him to the jaws of Hell!" She grew paler as she asked faintly, "Why?" "Because," he answered solemnly, "he can live for centuries, and you are but mortal womanTime is now to be dreaded, since once he put that mark upon your throat I was just in time to catch her as she fell forward in a faint CHAPTER 24 DRSEWARD'S PHONOGRAPH DIARY SPOKEN BY VAN HELSING This to Jonathan Harker You are to stay with your dear Madam MinaWe shall go to make our search, if I can call it so, for it is not search but knowing, and we seek confirmation onlyBut do you stay and take care of her todayThis is your best and most holiest officeThis day nothing can find him here Let me tell you that so you will know what we four know already, for I have tell themHe, our enemy, have gone shop away

   The only effectual way to put a stop to this...
[01/05/2010 8:53 pm]
The only effectual way to put a stop to this increasing interest would be, to declare that no manager or officer of the Royal Institution should ever, at the same time, hold office in the Royal Society The use the Members of the Royal Institution endeavour to make of their power in the Council of the Royal Society, is exemplified in the minutes of the Council of March 11, 1830, which may be consulted with advantage by those who doubt OF THE TRANSACTIONS OF THE ROYAL SOCIETY The Transactions of the Royal Society, unlike those of most foreign academies, contain nothing relating to the history of the Society The volumes contain merely those papers communicated to the Society in the preceding year which the Council have selected for printing, a meteorological register, and a notice of the award of the annual medals, without any list of the Council and officers of the Society, by whom that selection and that award have been made Before I proceed to criticise this state of things, I will mention one point on which I am glad to he able to bestow on the Royal Society the highest praise I refer to the extreme regularity with which the volumes of the Transactions are published The appearance of the half-volumes at intervals of six months, insures for any communication almost immediate publicity; whilst the shortness of the time between its reception and publication, is a guarantee to the public that the whole of the paper was really communicated at the time it bears date To this may also be added, the rarity of any alterations made previously to the printing, a circumstance which ought to be imitated, as well as admired, by other societies There may, indeed, be some, perhaps the Geological, in which the task is more difficult, from the nature of the subjectThe sooner, however, all societies can reduce themselves to this rule, of rarely allowing any thing but a few verbal corrections to papers that are placed in their hands, the better it will be for their own reputation, and for the interests of science It has been, and continues to be, a subject of deep regret, that the first scientific academy in Europe, the Institute of France, should be thus negligent in the regularity of its publications; and it is the more to be regretted, that it should be years in arrear, from the circumstance, that the memoirs admitted into their collection are usually of the highest merit I know some of their most active members have wished it were otherwise; I would urge them to put a stop to a practice, which, whilst it has no advantages to recommend it, is unjust to those who contribute, and is only calculated to produce conflicting claims, equally injurious to science, and to the reputation of that body, whose negligence may have given rise to themHerschel, speaking of a paper of Fresnel's, observes--"This memoir was read to the Institute, 7th of October, 1816; a supplement was received, 19th of January, 1818; MArago's report on it was read, 4th of June, 1821: and while every optical philosopher in Europe has been impatiently expecting its appearance for seven years, it lies as yet unpublished, and is only known to us by meagre notices in a periodical journalMR HERSCHEL'S TREATISE ON LIGHT, p --ENCYCLOPAEDIA METROPOLITANA One of the inconveniences arising from having no historical portion in the volumes of the Royal Society is, that not only the public, but our own members are almost entirely ignorant of all its affairs With a means of giving considerable publicity (by the circulation of above 800 copies of the Transactions) to whatever we wish to have made known to our members or to the world, will it be credited, that no notice was taken in our volume for 1826, of the foundation of two Royal medals, nor of the conditions under which they were to be distributed [That the Council refrained from having their first award of those medals thus communicated, is rather creditable to them, and proves that they had a becoming feeling respecting their former errors That in 1828, when a new fund, called the donation fund, was established, and through the liberality of DrDavies Gilbert, it was endowed by them with the respective sums of 2,000L 3 per cents; no notice of such fact appears in our Transactions for 1829 Other gentlemen have contributed; and if it is desirable to possess such a fund, it is surely of importance to inform the non-attending, which is by far the largest part of the Society, that it exists; and that we are grateful to those by whom it has been founded and augmented Neither did the Philosophical Transactions inform our absent members, that they could purchase the President's Discourses at the trade-price The list of the Officers, Council, and Members of the Royal Society is printed annually; yet, who ever saw it bound up with the Philosophical Transactions, to which it is intended to be attached? I never met with a single copy of that work so completed, not even the one in our own library It is extremely desirable that the Society should know the names of their Council; and whilst it would in some measure contribute to prevent the President from placing incompetent persons upon it, it would also afford some check, although perhaps but a slight one, on the distribution of the medals When I have urged the expediency of the practice, I have been answered by excuses, that the list could not be made up in time for the volume If this is true of the first part, they might appear with the second; and even if this were impracticable, the plan of prefixing them to the volume of the succeeding year, would be preferable to that of omitting them altogether The true reason, however, appeared at last It was objected to the plan, that by the present arrangement, the porter of the Royal Society took round the list to those members resident in London, and got from some of them a remuneration, in the shape of a Christmas-box; and this would be lost, if the time of printing were changed[During the printing of this chapter, a friend, on whom I had called, complained that the porter of the Royal Society had demanded half-a-crown for leaving the list Such are the paltry interests to which those of the Royal Society are made to bow Another point on which information ought to be given in each volume, is the conditions on which the distribution of the Society's medals are made It is true that these are, or ought to be, printed with the Statutes of the Society; but that volume is only in the hands of members, and it is for the credit of the medals themselves, that the laws which regulate their award should be widely known, in order that persons, not members of the Society, might enter into competition for them Information relative to the admissions and deaths amongst the Society would also be interesting; a list of the names of those whom the Society had lost, and of those members who had been added to its ranks each year, would find a proper place in the historical pages which ought to be given with each volume of our Transactions The want of a distinction between the working members of the Society, and those who merely honour it with their patronage, renders many arrangements, which would be advantageous to science, in some cases, injudicious, and in other instances, almost impossible Collections of Observations which are from time to time given to the Society, may be of such a nature, that but few of the members are interested in them In such cases, the expense of printing above 800 copies may reasonably induce the Council to decline printing them altogether; whereas, if they had any means of discrimination for distributing them, they might be quite willing to incur the expense of printing 250 Other cases may occur, in which great advantage would accrue, if the principle were shop once admitted

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